Whenever i'm here writing in blog, that means i've been holding back too much.

Who can i talk to? Most miserable moment in my life huh?

I won't forget what i've gone through.

Earlier this year, i found my love. Everything comes very fast,

I though it would be last as i think we really meant for each other.

But things just don't out well.

We ended up breaking up on 25th of March.

Is it wrong to be over protective?

Is it wrong for you to tell me what i had done wrong?

It's just feel like you didn't even wanted to give me a chance to realized what i had done wrong,

a chance for us to try.

This is the first miserable moment this year.

Because of having her in my life. I feel like changing.

I wanted to startup my own business. I planned, I tried,

I got a few jobs on hand. I thought everything will be work out well somehow.

But it seems fate decided to put a challenge on me.

I ended up lose all the job due to various reasons.

My bank account isn't have much money left as well.

And I had a trip to Taiwan in May.

I should be there happily, buying what i want,

do what i want and enjoy as much as i can.

In the end, this trip is just suck because i can't really enjoy myself and

I have to put burden on my mother.

I have to loan money from my mother.

I'm just so useless, so pathetic.

This is the second miserable moment this year.

And so today, i'm not in really good mood.

I missed her so badly and yet i can't do anything.

And so it seems someone know her better than me.

I think i should really let go and hope that guy treat her better than me.

I can't find someone to talk to how much heartache i felt.

I can only express my words here....

after so long, i'm back to here.

Maybe sometimes later i might not be able to remember you as much as i do now

but deep down in my heart

I won't forget you. 

Sincerely thank you. 

Thank you for all the happy memories we spent together.

I guess our story end here.

It's time to move on forwards.

There is still tons of life shit waiting me ahead.

Be strong and come back strong to laugh at myself when i'm older.